Today, my Rainbow, I found out about you. I could hardly believe it! I am carrying a little tiny baby inside. Excited! Anxious! Scared to death! I can’t wait to meet you. It’s been about a year since we found out that Jenna was with us. All these feelings all over again, but my innocence is gone. I plead to God that I get to hold you when you are born, feed you, kiss you and take you home. I plead to God for these. I want you to know that God has been good these past few months/ year, in spite of all the heartache along the way. There are nightmares that I often relive, those days that we knew Jenna were no doubt the best days of our lives. And I hope that your presence can only add to the blessing God has given us in Jenna Belle, your big sister.
I think you are about two weeks old. I have been dreaming about you, and even last night. I think God was telling me about you. Actually, I dreamed about twins last night…!
I am so happy to be your mommy. I will do my best in the grace of God to enjoy every moment that I am blessed to carry you in my womb.
Thank you, Lord for this unfathomable blessing.