I admitted to Pete yesterday that Jenna just feels so far away. I mean obviously, right? But it’s different than it used to be. I remember just having that feeling {for lack of a better word} that she was right there with us. I like to think she’s close by even though it doesn’t feel that way.
My miracle as of late is the messes I have the privilege of cleaning up.
One being the messy life of being a mama. Sometimes I look at Joseph’s toys all over the place and it makes me happy. I love that I have someone to make these messes around here.
This afternoon I cleaned up his high chair after he fed himself whole wheat pancakes and sweet potato and boy, oh boy. What a MESS!
A happy mess.
And while my baby girl can’t leave her baby dolls and pretend baby bottles all over the place, she still managed to make a beautiful mess in her 13 days.
Sometimes this mess is the emails I get from baby lost mamas who have read Jenna’ story and share their own journeys with me.
Sometimes this mess is making a baby lost mama’s blog a beautiful place to write and share her own baby’s story.
Sometimes this mess is taking my Jenna flowers.
Sometimes it’s nothing more than a moment that completely takes my breath away.
Lately this mess is accepting joy and sorrow into one single moment and being okay with this coexistence.
I don’t think I’ll ever finish picking up the pieces to this mess, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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What about you? What small miracles have you witnessed or felt lately? You can read more about this blog hop here. I hope you’ll join in and share the small moments in your life that bring you hope.
To join in it’s super easy! Just write your post on your blog, copy the link to the post and come back here and click “Click here to enter”. Please be sure to copy the link to your post, not your blog home page. Thanks!
UPDATE: If you have grabbed a button for this blog hop, would you please consider grabbing the button here with the new address since I have switched blogs? I would sooo appreciate it :)
Dear Franchesca… hope you don’t mind but I’ve combined my little miracle with a happy story for Natasha’s blog hop too :)) You’re both so inspiring. I can’t seem to get your button to work on my blog so have added a copy of the picture and a link… not sure what’s going wrong. Happy small miracle day xoxo
Thank you so much for letting me know about the button! Just fixed it :) And I am so glad you will be participating in both blog hops!! :) xo
Those messes are little miracles!
I love when babies try to feed themselves! They are so cute, even with food everywhere!
I also wanted to thank you for all that you do! Thanks for your help in picking up our mess with my blog as well as with our new logo :) Your talent is a wonderful gift.
I’m pretty sure Olivia and Jenna are making a big mess with their dollies in Heaven ;)
I sure hope they are Mary :) It makes me happy to think of her playing up there :) <3
What a beautiful mess. Love the idea of this blog hop Francesca, looking forward to joining this month and connecting with more loss moms.
Thank you Jessica! I am so glad you are joining in!! :)
I love this blog hop Franchesca!
Also, to the author of http://butterflykissesandrainbowishes.blogspot.com/ , I would love to have access to read your blog so I can read the post you have added to this hop. For some reason I get a message saying access to your blog is denied. Not sure how else to contact you so hopefully you will read these comments.
What a beautiful post. I love this blog hop. {{{HUGS}}}
Thank you Caroline!! xo