I am joining Angie from Still Life With Circles and a few other women around this community today. The question posed is…
Where are you in your grief? Emotionally. Physically. Psychically.
Hmm. That takes a lot of thinking. The first thought that comes to mind is divided. Right down the middle.
In all honesty my life is awesome. I mean that too. I have a great husband who loves and provides for us. And he loves being our head of the home. We have had a crazy amount of bumps in the road but we have learned immensely from each other. And I love that we live in Texas :)
And my kid, well he’s just plain fun. Just thinking about him makes me smile. His personality attracts complete strangers everywhere we go. He brings everyone so much joy, you know when he’s not having one of his moments. ;)
But then there’s that missing link. The huge what-if. The part of me that longs for my little girl. And all of the sudden I am just fed up with tears. Done- for the time being.
How can life be so awesome and so incomplete at the same time?
Everywhere, and I mean everywhere we go in the back of my head I can’t help but wonder what she’d be doing or saying or thinking. What in the world would her toddler voice sound like?
I hate that I barely knew her.
That’s where I am.