Sometimes I wish it were that easy.
To send a message in a bottle to Heaven, or whisper something and know beyond the shadow of a doubt Jenna hears it. Or tap an angel on the shoulder and ask him to carry a note back to my daughter. Most of the time I have no trouble believing she hears and sees us, but other times Heaven feels a crazy mess away.
The sadness that crept into my heart a few days ago is mostly gone, but it left a serious tiredness I just can’t shake.
Part of that is due to caring for my little one who has had a high fever but thankfully now on the mend.
I think…
today will involve a bit of chocolate, a whole lot of rest and tons of Bubby time. I think I may even try to make it to the nursery to pick up some petals for Jenna’s garden.
Jenna, if I could write a letter to Heaven and get it in your hands – literally, it would mostly tell you how much you are missed. There is this crazy hole, in the midst of our very blessed lives, you left behind. It was meant for you baby girl, only you.
Today – a totally random day on the calendar – is for you, celebrating the fact that you were ever a part of our lives. For that I am forever thankful.
Love you always,
everyday i think of you and Jenna and my heart breaks for you. I cannot imagine the pain in your heart. So many women draw strength from you dear friend. I wish there were words i could say to make your days better but i know I cant. All I know to say is you are loved and always in my prayers and Jenna is forever in our hearts. Love you ,
Amy and Nevaeh.
Love you too girl and so thankful for your friendship :) xxxx
Sending a hug to you Franchesca…some days it’s just hard and unfair.
I wanted to share with you…last Thursday it was our daughters birthday, and while she isn’t here anymore it is still her special day. I wanted more than anything a sign from heaven from her that she was around.
Well driving to pick up our other daughter from Summer Camp, in front of me in the beautiful cloudless sky was what looked like an angel spread across the horizon in front of me.
Its tradition now for my other daughter and me to let go balloons for Savannah, 10 minutes after we did this, on my car radio came her song that I would sing to her when she was sick…Landslide from Fleetwood Mac. A sign from her I’m sure.
While you can’t physically send your angel a letter, look for the little signs, Jenna is around I’m sure and knows how much her Mummy misses her.
with love
Diana x
Oh my word Diana- *chills* Thank you for sharing with me your sweet signs from above, how comforting those events must have been :)
I think you have it right, we just have to look for them.. they must know.
xo
There always seems to be a sign from above when I need it the most. I used to think it was Divine Intervention but now I believe it is more than just God, it is my babies sitting on His lap that send me signs to soothe my tired heart. Blessings and prayers that Bubby is feeling better, and you are too.
thank you so much Stephanie, glad to report that Bubby is definitely back to his old playful self :)
<3 much love fran. When the emotional storm creeps on me out of nowhere I have an emotional "hangover" and need time to recuperate from the storm. So I know where you are coming from on this one. Also I really love your photo. I actually just took a photo like this of my fence in my backyard. Funny where our inspiration comes from huh? Great minds thing alike… and you are certainly great. XOXOXO
So true, an emotional hangover is exactly it.
I’d love to see your photo too :) Love you to pieces. XO
thinking of you, Fran and hoping that you have a wonderful day honoring the life you carry with you, sweet Jenna.
thank you Deanna :) XXxx
Thinking of you and little Jenna. I do believe that they can always hear…..even when it seems like they are so very far away.
Sending lots of hugs my friend…….xoxo
I don’t know if you’re much of a Harry Potter fan, Fran….but wouldn’t it be wonderful if we had birds or owls that could deliver our messages to our babies? Just like they do in Harry? It seems like such an ideal way to let our babies truly know how much they are loved and missed. But I also agree with Natasha, I do believe that they are always listening. Only an ear’s worth away…. ((Hugs))
oh Harry Potter… those cute little owls!! yes what a fabulous idea!!! ;)
xxxx
Sometimes they feel near and sometimes the feel far…not really sure why. And I know it doesn’t help when our rainbows are sick. Another moment of shaken faith. I know she got your message….while she was floating on your shoulders.
xoxoxo
Thank you Christy, I’m not sure why either, but I’m so thankful for the times I can feel her close. xxoo
Thinking of you so much. I had a rollercoaster of emotions today. I had sometime today without the older kids and just Carly my mind was busy thinking. Sending you lots of {{HUGS}} I think they always hear and feel us even so far away,
Oh something about having time to just think, I have found that to be so dangerous, sometimes sad even. Sending you hugs too Caroline, thank you for your sweet thoughts. xo
I wish I could send her letter to Heaven for real!