This post may seem a tad reeediculous if you have never lost a child. But it is what it is.
Sometimes going to see Jenna at the cemetery is still hard, and sometimes it’s something my heart NEEDS to do.
About a week or so ago, Amy and I went to see our girls. Nevaeh is buried yards away from Jenna. It’s crazy to think that both our daughters died at the same hospital, they are buried near each other and only a month after Jenna passed, Nevaeh was diagnosed with Leukemia.
Life is so unpredictable.
I was telling Amy it makes me sad that toys for the cemetery don’t exist. This is the ridiculous part ya’ll. But does anyone else see my point? If you take fluffy stuffed animals they eventually get all muddy. I have a solution for the time being though. See, a while back my mom got me this garden hook that sticks in the ground from which you can hang stuff. So we did. We placed it right next to her marker and hung different things for different seasons. A year and a half went by without any trouble at all. One day I went to visit her, and was appalled to see it GONE.
I left in tears – a bit furious and a whole lot upset at whoever suddenly developed a problem with this. The next time I went to visit I was thinking more rationally and I did ask. I even got to look at the pile of stuff they take off grave markers, but I didn’t find it.
I decided to just find another. So when me and Amy were looking for ornaments a while back we spotted these garden hooks for 75 cents! Imagine my delight! No more muddy toys, I just had to make sure I had hanging decorations, and if they threw it out, I’d just grab another.
Easy fix.
In addition to the new garden hook I spotted some lovely girly ornaments to hang and a tiara that I just couldn’t pass by :)
oh and these sweet butterflies. Everything we found was purchased at Wal-mart. There are some seriously gorgeous Christmas ornaments and decorations this year! I’ve also noticed a TON of butterfly stuff ♥
Sweet Jenna, with each passing day I know I am that much closer to holding you again. That is my hope.
So beautiful. Love all of the beautiful things and especially the pretty girl colored ornaments. Jenna is so loved. Xo
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We put River’s Christmas tree up at the cemetery this weekend, it is awful that we even have to do that. It helps my heart though to spend some time there this time of year, even though it is cold and snowy. I found a really lovely butterfly at Walmart too! That’s really the only place for us to shop, so I am glad they have some cute things this winter. Lots of love to you and Nevaeh’s mommy.
That’s so beautiful honey. I struggle with not having a place to ‘decorate’ for Seb. Hoping we work out a way to do so one day.
Oh! You decorated it just so beautifully there! She is one proud little girl up in Heaven to have a Momma such as you!
xoxox
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Franchesca, It all looks so beautiful and I am sure your Jenna Belle loves it! ((HUGS))
You’ve decorated it beautifully!
I finally found a little christmas tree to take to Thea!!!!! I’ll be taking it to her tomorrow.
hugs
Maria
xxxxx
It all looks so lovely. I bought a little baby Jesus figurine at a church fair this year and we’ll be putting that on our daughter’s grave on Christmas day.
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I absolutely LOVE the princess tiara! It looks beautiful there.
I love her decorations! I like decorating Carleigh’s but have been neglectful lately :(and visiting today!
Her grave is so beautiful–you are such a good mama! I love your last two sentences. THey gave me chills….in a sad but good way. thank you! xoxo
I came across your website because of our similar love of all things tulle. It may be late but my deepest sympathy and love for you and your family and keeping your angels memory a beautiful one. My brother and sister in law lost their daughter and the pain is still there. They have been blessed with a beautiful son who brings joy daily but I know there is still an emptiness for her. Thank you for recognizing and showing that, though it is difficult, life and love goes on. Bless you!!
I came across your website because of our similar love of all things tulle. It may be late but my deepest sympathy and love for you and your family and keeping your angels memory a beautiful one. My brother and sister in law lost their daughter and the pain is still there. They have been blessed with a beautiful son who brings joy daily but I know there is still an emptiness for her. Thank you for recognizing and showing that, though it is difficult, life and love goes on. Bless you!!
Beautiful. I love the Jenna’s christmas decorations. I’m just sad that we have to decorate our daughter’s graves at all.
Psalm 55 v 6 is just perfect. I’t's made me so emotional but with a strange peace. I’m so glad I found your blog tonight. You have a lovely way with words. xx