If you are visiting for the first time, this post is part of the series “12 Days of Christmas With You in Heaven”. To learn more about this series, please click here. Today Natalie is sharing how she honors her son’s short life during Christmas.
I am so honored to be sharing a bit of my heart with you, through this series. What a wonderful way to celebrate those little lives waiting for us in heaven.
We found out we were expecting our first child in October 2009. The Christmas of that year was one of hope and anticipation. We celebrated our Savior and the blessing of the babe growing inside of me. We did not receive very many baby items, because we had yet to find out the gender of the baby. Who knew that I would look back in amazement at the fact that God shielded us from the heartache of returning those items. At 21 weeks, the day before we found out that he was a “he”, we lost our little Jonah. While our hearts have done a lot of healing since then, there is not a day that passes, that I don’t think of his tiny body lying in my arms, and the hopelessness that filled the room.
When Christmas came in 2010, we decided we no longer wanted to remember sweet Jonah as hopelessness and loss, but as a reason to celebrate. We celebrate that he is waiting for us in heaven, and we celebrate the fact that God carried us through that difficult time, only to bring us our adopted son, who was born only one month after Jonah should have been born. We keep his memory alive by blessing someone else during this season of giving. Jonah would’ve been 2 this Christmas, and so we will shower another deserving 2 year old with gifts, as a sign of hope that has been renewed. We continue to celebrate Jonah’s presence, both here and in heaven.