Because nothing can come close to sweetness of a newborn, I struggle with admitting any of this. But for starters, I do miss my sleep.
Because I have lost a daughter, and have welcomed a precious new girl into our world, I hate to complain. Like hate, hate HATE. I feel like I have no business in the department of complaining about lack of sleep, exhaustion, baby blues, etc. I should just shut up and be thankful, right? But this new place is taking some serious getting used to.
Because the weather’s been too cold, too wet, or both lately, we’ve been watching a ton of movies for Bubby. Especially after his three week spell with a horrible cough/ cold/ ear infection. Thank Heavens for ABC Family (I think it was them!) and the marathon of Disney movies they aired yesterday! I think I can quote Cars 1 + 2 word for word, we’ve watched it so much lately.
Because life has become massively exhausting overnight, I am taking a little time each day to dig my nose into a book just for fun. I picked up this one today for five bucks. So thrilled, and already so good.
More than anything it’s the grief that’s making this harder than it needs to be.
I am grieving. I am thankful. I am a mother. And I am giving this crazy+amazing new normal every ounce of ‘can do’ there is inside me.
You’re doing an amazing job. She’s simply divine. Hang in there, mama. xo
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Thank you Sally. xoxo!
Franchesca recently posted..Confessions of This Newborn Mama
It is hard. Go easy on yourself. Talking about the reality of a newborn (exhausting!) doesn’t take away from the joy. Truth is helpful, not myth. Thanks for being brave enough to post. I hope you have people to surround you with love and practical support during this time. I’m praying for you and your family.
BeckyG recently posted..He Still Says Yes
Thank you Becky. Thankfully I have a beautiful support system, just not one to ask for help unless I am desperate lol. I think I’m getting there;)
xoxo
Franchesca recently posted..Confessions of This Newborn Mama
Saying a prayer for you right now. May God grant you the grace and peace and patience you need today.
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Thank you so much!
Franchesca recently posted..Confessions of This Newborn Mama
Fran, don’t do that to yourself. . . sleep deprivation, baby blues, hormones, sick kid, AND your still technically recovering from having a baby. You have every right (even with a loss background) to say “this is hard”! Because, it is hard. We all hate to say it, because there is such love and luck involved in getting to have a new baby . . . but it is also a complete adjustment. You are juggling and surviving still. I can tell you (because I lost Amelia after three healthy babies) and had a rainbow ~ that ‘grief or no grief’ adjusting to a new baby is not a cake walk. Oh, they are so sweet, smell like candy, and are amazing in so many ways, but they are also A LOT OF WORK and doing that WITH a toddler and operating on little to no sleep is grounds for ‘stating it like it is’.
We all (loss mama’s) have wished for these moments with the babies that were gone too soon. But that doesn’t mean that we should never again be allowed to say ‘this is hard’ with the rainbow blessings we do get to keep. If you can’t talk about it, then you are isolated and alone ~ which again ~ is no good.
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Thank you!!! Yes, so much work, so worth it, but so so hard lol!
Franchesca recently posted..Confessions of This Newborn Mama
Hang in there, Fran. What you’re doing right now is one of the hardest things in the world to do. Just breathe. I’m praying for you, lady!
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Thank you Kessi!! :)
Franchesca recently posted..Confessions of This Newborn Mama
It’s ok to be tired, overwhelmed, etc…you are now juggling having two little ones to care for with new schedules & routines & needs. Just because a family is blessed with a rainbow baby doesn’t mean everything is rosy all time! Beautiful and loved, yes. Always easy, not so much so!
Never be embarrassed or ashamed to be real–with you joy, your grief, your exhaustion. This is motherhood!
XO