Because nothing can come close to sweetness of a newborn, I struggle with admitting any of this. But for starters, I do miss my sleep.
Because I have lost a daughter, and have welcomed a precious new girl into our world, I hate to complain. Like hate, hate HATE. I feel like I have no business in the department of complaining about lack of sleep, exhaustion, baby blues, etc. I should just shut up and be thankful, right? But this new place is taking some serious getting used to.
Because the weather’s been too cold, too wet, or both lately, we’ve been watching a ton of movies for Bubby. Especially after his three week spell with a horrible cough/ cold/ ear infection. Thank Heavens for ABC Family (I think it was them!) and the marathon of Disney movies they aired yesterday! I think I can quote Cars 1 + 2 word for word, we’ve watched it so much lately.
Because life has become massively exhausting overnight, I am taking a little time each day to dig my nose into a book just for fun. I picked up this one today for five bucks. So thrilled, and already so good.
More than anything it’s the grief that’s making this harder than it needs to be.
I am grieving. I am thankful. I am a mother. And I am giving this crazy+amazing new normal every ounce of ‘can do’ there is inside me.