so this is love.
I’ve had blog posts drifting through my head but I’ve barely had enough time to even check my email these days. The blog posts usually happen when I’m driving, almost asleep or feeding the kiddos… but if I could tell you what’s been on my heart you’d get a modge podge answer that goes something [...]
Watching your son. Doing this. On his own. Enjoying it, and believing that his mower is making as big a difference as his daddy’s – because – you know – it is! He’s so proud. He smiles shyly at you when you try to take the picture, but then turns his sweaty red face back [...]
This afternoon, Evie fell asleep in my arms, and a few minutes later I found myself waking up to the sound of the doorbell. Our neighborhood boys trying to find their ball in our yard again. I looked down at her, realizing what had just happened. I had fallen asleep too. She was so comfortable. [...]
I have this dream. It’s pretty close to my heart. It might not be big to others, but it’s big to me. It’s what I’ve been talking with my husband about lately. He’s welcomes the idea, but he’s skeptical. He says I’m already so busy, and he’s so right. But it’s hard to shake a [...]
Dear Joseph + Evelyn, It seems like this year it just doesn’t stop. The world is a hurting place, and you have to wonder how much more sadness can be born into such a small world. I feel helpless thinking about the world you will know. A lot of people say that all these disasters [...]
I am free. Free from the lies. The hurt. The guilt. The guarded heart. The trembling. The fear. Today, I am free. She smiles. Her dimples poking the most adorable pockets into the biggest, softest cheeks ever. She loves. Something in her eyes tells me she knows. The rainbow. It heals. The scar ever present. [...]
Lately we’ve been watching the new-ish Tron movie. More like Pete watching, me listening to it in the background while I work. I have to admit, while it’s not really my type of movie, I LOVE the soundtrack. I am kind of crazy about my phone bling by Handmade JILLry..:) I miss God. I know that sounds [...]
Last night on Still Standing’s facebook page I posed a question about describing your grief journey in one word. The response was overwhelming. Many hours later, that status was still active, and all kinds of words were popping up. Words like ‘heavy, broken, confused, raw…” My heart sinks reading those words. These words are being [...]
Lately on weekends I am finding it easier to close the laptop. Unwind, as much as possible. This past weekend I sort of celebrated having my living room ‘redone’. I made curtains out of $12 wal-mart queen size sheets, painted a chalkboard wall in our kitchen and made our own family photo wall collage on [...]
Since the thought of having children entered my mind years and years ago, I’ve always been afraid of having a daughter. Maybe its because I knew how me and my own mom got along in my teen years… maybe it’s because I knew how I was… I don’t know. But I do know the thought [...]
I shared a few days ago about my little adventure, of going ‘no poo’. Some people ask me if I need a laxative when I tell them I’m going ‘no poo’. I just about died (laughing and in embarrassment!;). The name is funny though! Basically it’s ditching shampoo and conditioner to detox your hair, and using [...]
This has been on my heart since the Google Hangout a few days ago with STILL Project and a few other amazing people in this loss community. At the very end Carrie asked us what we would say to everyone who has supported us, and just anyone out there listening in. My first instinct was [...]
I’ve gone no poo. It’s all Pinterest’s fault. I’m on day four, and my hair is now globs of grease balls and straw. After the first wash a few days ago, it was softer than it’s been in a long time! It’s weird. I hear it gets better. I believe it will. I’ve read this [...]
I’m pretty sure I’ve said it here before, but when the doctor told us our first rainbow was a boy, I was nervous because I didn’t know if I had what a little boy would need. But since the day he’s been born, I realized I didn’t need to know a thing. He’d show me. [...]
