My heart is so full. These babies. They have absolutely no idea how much they fill my heart with the most undeserving and unbelievable love and joy. linking up here
One Day
May 23, 2013 by · 3 Comments
One day I’m going to miss this. The changing diapers. Wiping runny noses. Playing ‘clean up’ fifteen times a day. The nights that involve six hours of broken sleep. Hearing Bubby talk about how he wants Daddy on this new schedule. Washing these littles fingers and toes in the bath tub. Holding their hands and [...]
When Inspiration is Scarce and Life is Full
May 17, 2013 by · 4 Comments
Sometimes life is so full. Full of laundry piles, sick babies, dirty dishes, grocery runs, bills, emails, bad hair days. Life gets full. I have always felt like a part of me is a writer. Not to be confused with the writer that writes best-selling novels and travels the world on the publisher’s dime. But [...]
This Mess
May 3, 2013 by · 3 Comments
On a typical day, this is what my living room floor looks like. Dump trucks, stuffed animals and books scattered all over our worn out carpet. Rubbed out spots on the floor, from peanut butter or ice cream. Laundry covering the smaller sofa. I can hardly keep up these days. I think I’ve given up [...]
Conversations With My Rainbow Baby
April 29, 2013 by · 6 Comments
Sometimes she whispers. Sometimes she’s far. And it’s almost like it never happened. It’s easier for grief to be so close it hurts. Isn’t that so backwards though? In the beginning it was unimagineable to think that I’d have to carry this pain for the rest of my life. And now that ebb and flow [...]
The Moments You Live For
April 24, 2013 by · 4 Comments
Watching your son. Doing this. On his own. Enjoying it, and believing that his mower is making as big a difference as his daddy’s – because – you know – it is! He’s so proud. He smiles shyly at you when you try to take the picture, but then turns his sweaty red face back [...]
A Letter to My Littles
April 16, 2013 by · 9 Comments
Dear Joseph + Evelyn, It seems like this year it just doesn’t stop. The world is a hurting place, and you have to wonder how much more sadness can be born into such a small world. I feel helpless thinking about the world you will know. A lot of people say that all these disasters [...]
easter weekend.
April 1, 2013 by · 2 Comments
Lately on weekends I am finding it easier to close the laptop. Unwind, as much as possible. This past weekend I sort of celebrated having my living room ‘redone’. I made curtains out of $12 wal-mart queen size sheets, painted a chalkboard wall in our kitchen and made our own family photo wall collage on [...]
Boy Mom
March 15, 2013 by · 8 Comments
I’m pretty sure I’ve said it here before, but when the doctor told us our first rainbow was a boy, I was nervous because I didn’t know if I had what a little boy would need. But since the day he’s been born, I realized I didn’t need to know a thing. He’d show me. [...]
Rodeo
March 10, 2013 by · 10 Comments
This is our third year going to the rodeo. The first where Joseph was able to really enjoy it. I loved watching his face, riding the pony, feeding the animals, riding the ferris wheel, walking around in his big boy boots holding his Daddy’s hand. Be still, my heart. He’s growing up, and while [...]
Old Soul
March 7, 2013 by · 7 Comments
For days, maybe even weeks, I’ve wanted so much to come here and write. Truly pour my soul out once again, as I’ve done so often in the past. This is therapy to me. Hammering the keys down, forming my thoughts into words. Sharing them with the world. It helps my soul. It’s ironic to me [...]
Embrace
February 25, 2013 by · 8 Comments
I know what they mean now. When you hug your kids, hold them together on your lap. The wholeness. The wonder that surrounds you in the clumsy embrace – that you carried these beautiful lives into this world. That you matter unfathomably so much to them. And you can’t picture your world without them. I [...]
For You.
January 31, 2013 by · 1 Comment
I love Emily Dickinson quotes. I added this quote to my header design a days ago too. It epitomizes everything about this blog and the way I feel about life these days. Today I found myself playing baseball with my two and half year old little man under a windy, blue sky. He is actually pretty [...]
