so this is love.
Giving thanks today for… 1. sunlight in January. 2. celebrating Evelyn’s homecoming with friends+family 3. having beautiful messes throughout the house. Yes, beautiful. One day I will miss them. 4. hearing him call her “peshus” (precious) 5. the proofs arriving yesterday! I’m settling into this new routine of caring for two littles. I use the [...]
I find myself more curious than ever. What she would have been like… What she would think of her little sister… Would Evelyn and Jenna favor each other? Every day I’ve had the divine pleasure of holding my own sweet girl. Taking my time with her. Feeding her, loving her, holding her. I held Jenna [...]
I underestimated how stressful the NICU experience can be with another living child. It just is. We know we probably won’t have to do this much longer, but each day feels so misplaced. No matter where I am – home or the hospital – I feel split. Incomplete. And like I’m letting one of my [...]
I think Baby Peach has hiccups right now as I type. I’m so used to her thumping away in my belly, it occurred to me today that I will miss this time with her dearly. I love being pregnant. I don’t sleep well these days, and there are about a hundred other inconveniences that I [...]
“When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, “Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.” To this day, especially in times of “disaster,” I remember my mother’s words and I am always comforted by realizing that there are [...]
I’ve had this dream for as long as I can remember. To be a mom. It came true, and it didn’t all at once. I went to my own baby shower today. The second one I’ve been to since my shower for Bubby. I was a wreck on the way up there. Thankfully the drive [...]
I’ve been concerned more than usual about how Bubby will welcome baby Peach once he realizes she’s not going anywhere, and that she is a part of our family forever. Right now he LOVES babies. In the store every time he sees a mother pushing a baby through the aisle in a basket he says [...]
It hasn’t really felt like Black Friday today. Maybe because instead of getting up at the crack of dawn to fight crowds and parking spaces and stand in lines that barely move, I was hauling little man from his bed to ours. He usually walks over to us, sometime around 4-5 in the morning (and [...]
I’m weird. But when I saw my washer filling up with pink tulle and strawberries patches… my heart skipped a beat. I am thankful for pink laundry. I am also thankful that baby Peach (very much like her big sister) has some kick-butt ninja skills. Apparently she is breech right now (says the nurse last [...]
I could tell you about the anxiety that is slowly building for tomorrow’s doctor appointment (and glucose test)… and I could tell you that the closer the book is to being done, and the time to share it with a few special people is drawing nearer, the more nervous I am about handing a huge [...]
So you know that moment that overcomes you when you realize this is what life is all about… and the sunset is somehow painting a breathtaking backdrop for this epic moment… when your son runs up to you holding a fistful of otherwise weeds, but today – precious flowers - as you happen to be holding your camera [...]
I was pleasantly surprised at yesterday’s ultrasound appointment. In a matter of minutes the technician flipped the screen from the 2D ultrasound that I can hardly ever make out, to the fun 3D one. My first impression? Tears. She looks so much like Bubby did at this stage (bottom one is Baby Peach). In a [...]
Dear Bubby, All I can really say tonight is that you have filled our past almost two and a half years with incredible love. And… the other night when we were passing your clothes onto your little cousin, I was a bit of a mess inside. To think of how much you’ve already grown. So many [...]
Every time I think about holding baby Peach for the very first time, soaking her beautiful scent up and realizing that she will be forever ours tears begin to fall. With Bubby that moment came right after my c-section before they knocked me out again. They let me hold him, and I remember the tears falling. [...]
Being your mama never, ever gets old sweet boy. Sometimes you climb up next to me on the couch at the end of the day and ask to hold my hand. And after a few minutes of pouring into your book or watching the show on television (tonight that would be The Little Rascals) you [...]
