so this is love.
Memorial weekend always feels to me like the unofficial launch of all things SUMMER. Friends, I am so excited. Summer usually means business slows down a bit, which actually is okay with me. You see, when Jenna died it was around this time of year. Summer was about to begin and as much as I [...]
On a typical day, this is what my living room floor looks like. Dump trucks, stuffed animals and books scattered all over our worn out carpet. Rubbed out spots on the floor, from peanut butter or ice cream. Laundry covering the smaller sofa. I can hardly keep up these days. I think I’ve given up [...]
This is our third year going to the rodeo. The first where Joseph was able to really enjoy it. I loved watching his face, riding the pony, feeding the animals, riding the ferris wheel, walking around in his big boy boots holding his Daddy’s hand. Be still, my heart. He’s growing up, and while [...]
For days, maybe even weeks, I’ve wanted so much to come here and write. Truly pour my soul out once again, as I’ve done so often in the past. This is therapy to me. Hammering the keys down, forming my thoughts into words. Sharing them with the world. It helps my soul. It’s ironic to me [...]
the park, the little man’s face when he sees the park and time. lots and lots of time. sunset at battery park. people that believe in spontaneity. it’s rare in today’s hectic world. but it keeps life interesting. people who will dress up like these two sesame street characters. verdict is still out on the [...]
I remember your tears. I remember you doing lots of things, but mostly I remember you crying for me. I remember the meals, the clean house, the visits, the flowers. And the cards with a dozen too many words for me to wrap my brain around at that time. But today when I think back, [...]
Thankful for… 6. color 7. paint 8. experiencing a ridiculously messy paint festival in our kitchen on a sunny January day 9. newborn baby naps 10. chai tea 11. hair date that’s supposed to happen next week. it’s been so long since i’ve had anything done professionally on my hair! {inspiration here!} 12. Pete giving into [...]
There are some things that are must haves around here. For fun. For memories. For time’s sake. Because life is too short and must have some ‘rules’ to make the most of it. Keep the camera and/ or phone charged and easy to get to. Kodak moments seem to come as quickly as they go. [...]
Giving thanks today for… 1. sunlight in January. 2. celebrating Evelyn’s homecoming with friends+family 3. having beautiful messes throughout the house. Yes, beautiful. One day I will miss them. 4. hearing him call her “peshus” (precious) 5. the proofs arriving yesterday! I’m settling into this new routine of caring for two littles. I use the [...]
I underestimated how stressful the NICU experience can be with another living child. It just is. We know we probably won’t have to do this much longer, but each day feels so misplaced. No matter where I am – home or the hospital – I feel split. Incomplete. And like I’m letting one of my [...]
These last few days have been filled with so much. So much love. So much hope. So much anxiety. And surprisingly so much grief. When the nurse came into the room and announced that we would be taking the baby that night, it was everything I could do to not cry. I fought back the [...]
I think Baby Peach has hiccups right now as I type. I’m so used to her thumping away in my belly, it occurred to me today that I will miss this time with her dearly. I love being pregnant. I don’t sleep well these days, and there are about a hundred other inconveniences that I [...]
It hasn’t really felt like Black Friday today. Maybe because instead of getting up at the crack of dawn to fight crowds and parking spaces and stand in lines that barely move, I was hauling little man from his bed to ours. He usually walks over to us, sometime around 4-5 in the morning (and [...]
If I was honest I’d tell you more than anything it breaks my heart that our country is so… divided. Facebook and twitter were spewing with so much hatred and ugliness and over a matter of difference in opinions on Tuesday. I don’t and I just won’t get into politics here – hopefully ever. If [...]
I usually don’t write about everyday life stuff. Like trucks breaking down, or flat tires or our leaky refrigerator. Because really, who wants to read about them? But last week friends, was a week of serious faith-exercises. In one week both our vehicles went caputs. Our internet was down for one full day. Our sink [...]
