so this is love.
“wished for child” “beautiful bird” “life” I tend to think the last one is the most accurate meaning of her first name, but no matter what her name really means, they all just fit. So perfectly. It still doesn’t feel like she’s ours, I’ll admit. Maybe it has to do with having to ask permission [...]
We are home. We are in awe. We are in love. We are exhausted. But more than anything we are wonderstruck, with more thanks than we know how to give. She is ours.
On the night sweet Evelyn was born this miracle fell over Christian’s Beach. Carly’s email and pictures sent chills over me. Real life, visible chills. She says there has only ever been one other rainbow over the sand dunes at sunset in the four and half years she has been drawing names in the sand. [...]
These last few days have been filled with so much. So much love. So much hope. So much anxiety. And surprisingly so much grief. When the nurse came into the room and announced that we would be taking the baby that night, it was everything I could do to not cry. I fought back the [...]
Tonight I’m feeling less than glamourous (not that I EVER feel glamourous these days… covered in snot, slobbery kisses and paint half the time) in a hospital gown with puffy eyes. Two words. Magnesium Sulfate. This drug could not be more evil. It feels like the Scarecrow from Batman Begins just showed you his mask, [...]
It feels strange leaving Christmas behind, and to be standing what feels like only inches away from holding our newest child. I wrote a few days ago on visiting the cemetery, and how it had been months and months since going to see Jenna. After Christmas turned into just another normal day today, grief doesn’t [...]
I think Baby Peach has hiccups right now as I type. I’m so used to her thumping away in my belly, it occurred to me today that I will miss this time with her dearly. I love being pregnant. I don’t sleep well these days, and there are about a hundred other inconveniences that I [...]
I’ve had this dream for as long as I can remember. To be a mom. It came true, and it didn’t all at once. I went to my own baby shower today. The second one I’ve been to since my shower for Bubby. I was a wreck on the way up there. Thankfully the drive [...]
I knew I wanted something unique for baby girl’s window, and was so excited to find this tutorial for knock-off Anthropologie curtains. It was pretty easy, but definitely time consuming! The instructions were great though. Yesterday my kitchen table was covered in fabric, tons of thread and Cherrios. Someone on instagram said I was Pinterest nesting, [...]
Tonight, as I was wrapping up some designs and working on others, I realized I wasn’t just having a contraction or two, I was having contractions… and more contractions. I glanced at my worried hubby’s face a time or two, trying to convince myself that it was going to be okay. Braxton Hicks. Everyone gets [...]
It hasn’t really felt like Black Friday today. Maybe because instead of getting up at the crack of dawn to fight crowds and parking spaces and stand in lines that barely move, I was hauling little man from his bed to ours. He usually walks over to us, sometime around 4-5 in the morning (and [...]
There are many times when I wonder why I blog at all, but tonight there is no doubt I just need to clear my head. I have been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. I got the bomb dropped on me the other day, and while I know, I know things can be so. much. worse… this sucks like [...]
I’m weird. But when I saw my washer filling up with pink tulle and strawberries patches… my heart skipped a beat. I am thankful for pink laundry. I am also thankful that baby Peach (very much like her big sister) has some kick-butt ninja skills. Apparently she is breech right now (says the nurse last [...]
Today I was glad to be driving home. Even in almost two hours of Houston traffic. One accident and another incident of debris on the highway. I was glad to be the one with nothing more than a scare, no contractions, no problems. Just a little discomfort that I thought might be more than that. [...]
I was pleasantly surprised at yesterday’s ultrasound appointment. In a matter of minutes the technician flipped the screen from the 2D ultrasound that I can hardly ever make out, to the fun 3D one. My first impression? Tears. She looks so much like Bubby did at this stage (bottom one is Baby Peach). In a [...]
